January 17, 2007
New Years Eve Day I received a
call from a friend who told me our mutual friends' daughter passed away.
HUH? WHAT? I couldn't believe it. This young woman was forty-two years
old. She wasn't ill. What happened? She didn't know. I called our friend
and she couldn't get on the phone. I understood and left a message, you
know the one that says, if I can help with anything please let me know. I
called the next day. Again she wouldn't
and couldn't get on the phone. I've pretty much called every day but I
would imagine it must be difficult for her not to only live it but to talk
about it. From my understanding there was no service but my husband and I
sent a card and flowers. What else was there to do? I do not think she
would appreciate me showing up at her doorstep from 300 miles away. I will
keep calling and praying for her and her family. I will be there for her
when she is ready to talk.
So now another friend who I consider my adopted daughter gave birth within
two weeks of this death. It is exciting for me to become a new "grandma"
again. Debbie lived here in Vegas for many years. In fact she was my very
first friend here in Las Vegas when we
moved her 22 years ago. We met through the GH
fan club Pen Pal group. I had no idea she was 12 years old at the time and
I started writing to her from NY before we moved here. Of course by the
time we were ready to move I knew Debbie and adored her. She not only was
my friend and adopted daughter but she was my son's babysitter. And now
Debbie and her husband have a second son. I am going to Oregon next week
to help her with the kids. I am looking forward to seeing the entire
In December we went to one of our closest friend's daughters wedding in
Berkeley. What a wonderful time we had. We danced and sang along with the
band. Totally a fun weekend. We have another wedding to attend in August
in Northern Ca. I have known this soon
to be bride since she was 13. She turned 25 recently. When did this happen
that my peers and I are no longer the bride but the mothers of the bride
and groom? Another friend of mine is becoming a grandma for the very
first time in May. She is so excited that she has already bought some toys
and clothing for the new baby. Our biological grandson turns the big 2 on
February 24. The tides are turning as life goes so very fast. Sounds like
a great title for another soap opera.
Today Steve (my husband) had a car accident. The car is
totaled. Typical man worried how we are
going to pay for a new car. The accident is inconvenient. He called me at
6:45am as I was drooling on my pillow to ask me to bring his insurance
papers. He had no idea prior that the insurance card wasn't in the glove
box. I got there in record time of 30 minutes. He was half way to work
when the accident occurred. I watched
as one of the trucks (the one that hit our car) was being towed and
wondered where our tow truck was. Steve said
ohh I can drive it home. I said why would you drive it home if its
totaled? I love him dearly but he
wasn't thinking straight. I guess thinking about how inconvenient this
was didn't allow him to think rationally. Anyway he attempted to drive the
car and it was undrivable.
Hence another tow truck was called. He couldn't come to terms with the
accident all day. The inconvenience and the money. Granted like most
everyone out there we live very conservative.
True we did go on a vacation this year but it was for a special occasion.
However purchasing a new car is not in the budget. Nor what we will get
for a 2003 SaturnL200 will pay for a
newer model car. So we are SOL but you
know what? We will find a way.
SO Steve had a rough day. He is getting a cold on top of this and all he
can think about is the car. I've always told you he is the best husband
and father and all around good guy. However, I finally had enough and
looked at him and said, Steve you aren't
totaled. It's just a fricken
car. My friend just lost her daughter. She would trade your situation in a
New York Minute. Amazingly, that was the per
verbal slap on the face he needed to realize that a car is material
possession. It's replaceable.
I am still reeling for my friend who had a major loss. We aren't supposed
to lose our children. They are supposed to outlive us. I know life goes
on. It has to. As I look forward to kissing our grandson Happy Birthday
next month , I will also look forward to the wedding in August. I have
found memories of the fun we had in December and wait for the new baby to
be born in May, I am going to visit with Jacob in Oregon next week and
reflect upon the meaning of The Circle of Life.
Oh, mirror in the
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
... Stevie Nicks, c1975
December 28, 2006
December 2, 2006
November 16, 2006
November 6, 2006
October 26, 2006
October 13, 2006
October 7, 2006