I guess 2007 is the year of change for me. Both Steve and I realize
nothing lasts forever. We hope our marriage does but what about
friends, jobs and location?
This year Steve decided with much prodding (from moi) to move to a new
school. He had been at his school for a total of fourteen years. He
was known as Superman. He was the security at this school where not
only did the present youngsters know him, but their older sisters and
brothers did as well. We actually were waiting for the next generation
of children to come up to him and ask if he knew their mom or dad who
had previously attended this inner city school. Well, that didn't
happen. A change of administration led to a change in hours and
overtime which led to Steve FINALLY realize it was time to move to a
school closer to the house with an added bonus of more hours of work.
He now saves 20 miles a day round trip and gains 5 extra hours of work
He was given an amazing going away party, which is unusual for the
school employees here in Las Vegas. So many people change schools.
There would be a party every day if everyone was given this type of
good bye. I felt so proud watching him shine on his last day at this
school. He seems happy at the new school. The staff seems nice and I
know it's going to take a little while until he thinks of it as home.
However, I know that will happen.
I am at the stage of my life where as I am ridding myself of people I
no longer want in my life. Perhaps they were once thought of as
friends or just fair weather friends but I am cleaning house. It takes
time, it takes thought and it also takes emotion; however, I am doing
it, all for the sake of change and sanity.
We also have decided that after this year, aka December 2007, we are
not renewing our membership to our synagogue. Frankly, it hurt me to
make this decision and this change, but as much as I will always be
proud to be a Jew (hopefully a good one at that), I cannot condone the
changes that are being made with the Board of Directors at the Temple.
I have to be able to look at myself in the mirror and be happy with
what I see. The congregation built a beautiful new building that I am
sure is more expensive to run than was anticipated, so everyone has to
pitch in and pay for it. That I understand, however how they chose to
go about it is something I choose not to share at this time. I wish
them well. Again, I will cherish the 23 years I've shared with them
but now it's time to not be affiliated with a synagogue and let the
young and the more affluent handle it.
I am looking forward to Steve's retirement. That's not for a few
years. I am ready for another change. I am ready to move to Texas. I
am living for today, but planting the seed for our future. I have to
clean house so I can move on in peace.
After reading this, I realized it probably sounds as if I am angry. I
am not. I have to find the happy medium so I can allow myself the
peace I need. Last weekend, I watched Larry King. I do not watch his
show often, but Joy Behar was on the show promoting her book,
When You Need a Lift
. I have been so blessed in my life and
when I find I am going to either start to feel sorry for myself or I
am not having a great day, I have so many wonderful things to
remember. By having these memories, it rips me out of the bad mood and
I am OK again. I think the idea for her book is fabulous. There are so
many angry people out there. I hope we all take the time to realize
that we cannot sweat the small stuff. If something is bothering us and
it's been more than six months, (our son taught us this) either handle
it or live with it. Life is way too short. Each year it gets more
I wish for all of us to find peace in healing.